Motherhood in May / Part 3 As I've thrown myself into writing my book, I've shared less and less about adoption here. I kind of hate that even though it is a necessity as I am determined to manage my book content and keep it fresh. (for all previous posts on adoption, click here) Today, however, I have a few … Continue reading I Long for Both of Mine…
Motherhood in May / Part 2 Odd as it may seem, for me, most days begin with a seemingly obvious reminder that my mom is gone and has been for more than 7 months. I still attempt to call her several times a week and often find myself surprised by the program from her funeral gracing my refrigerator. As … Continue reading Beets & Basil.
Motherhood in May / Part 1 The Motherhood in May series meets the How to be a Bad Mom series. In the early days of teaching Rubina her colors we would play the "color game" and one day, this transpired: Me: What color are your boots? R: Yellow! What color is the box? R: Blue! What color is … Continue reading How to be a Bad Mom, Part 2 | Blue is the New Orange
In May I will focus solely on the topic of motherhood in a series titled, Motherhood in May. The anticipation of my first Mother's Day without my mom, has my emotions in a hurricane-esque fury. I find myself anticipating the weight of her absence caving in on me on a day in which I have more reasons than … Continue reading Motherhood.
I had no plans to post today because, well, consistency in blog posting isn't exactly my thing, but I had an urge to jot some things down. After lunch today, I scrolled through my Instagram feed and read some news I'd been dreading; event planner extraordinaire, creative force, loving momma, and stranger to me, Tori … Continue reading For My Mom / For Her / For Us All
My husband captured this quiet, precious moment between Rubina and I the other night as she and I talked about my mom. I'm extremely grateful to have this photo; I hope to never forget the way she looked at me, the tugging feeling as she wound my hair around her small fingers, and the sound of her voice as … Continue reading Grief and Motherhood
Our adored babe is now 5 years old and tiny, no longer. There are days in which the past five years are a colorful blur and days in which I feel the wear and weight of every minute. It's been challenging and growth inducing in the most beautiful and rewarding ways. Worth the wear, worth … Continue reading Rubina Tyler /// Version 5.0
My mom passed away just over 4 weeks ago. In the days immediately following her death, there was a deep sense of peace and relief; she had suffered so long and was finally at rest. My dad, brothers and I felt she deserved to go. We knew a great reward awaited her as she moved … Continue reading Pamela June Lewis | 1954 – 2015
Part 1 | No vs. Yes Rubina ask so many questions in a single day. More questions than I ever thought was possible. I've even categorized them; here's the breakdown: The "Can I's": Can I have some chocolate? Can I go outside? Can I get a cat? Can I jump from the fourth stair? Can I get a … Continue reading Bad Mom, Part 1 | No vs. Yes
Five years ago I woke up in the middle the night certain my mom had died. She'd had surgery a couple days prior and wasn't rebounding as quickly as they'd hoped; her Dr's made 3 critical errors during this minor, routine surgery. I was worried. It was 1am in Colorado and midnight in Oregon. I slept restlessly for … Continue reading Five Years Ago | My Miracle Momma & Long Term Suffering