I turned 37 yesterday. I felt 37 yesterday. But in the best way. I felt comfortable in my own skin; in the work I'm doing, in the direction I'm heading, in my weight and appearance, with my brow game, and mostly in being in the presence of my sweet family. I feel older too. Over the … Continue reading Mothers / Birthdays
Tag: Loss
The * to the Golden Rule
We all know it...the Golden Rule. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. It's a simple concept many of us learned as toddlers from our parents or in Sunday school. The concept comes up quite frequently with my 5 year old. Many of our conversations revolve around me asking her to put herself in … Continue reading The * to the Golden Rule
Dear Adoption,
November is National Adoption Awareness Month. In anticipation, I worked hard for the past several months creating a website for adoptees, by adoptees. The idea for Dear Adoption, came to me over a year and a half ago in the middle of the night. The following morning, I called to tell my mom about it … Continue reading Dear Adoption,
I Wish / I Hope / I Know
I Wish / I Hope / I Know I wish we had more time together. I hope to cherish and treasure all the moments ahead with the ones I love. I wish for everyone the closeness we shared. I hope to achieve it to an even greater depth with my daughter. I wish I’d inquired more about your life … Continue reading I Wish / I Hope / I Know
36 and 10 / What I’ve Learned About Adoption
Today marks 36 years since my arrival from Calcutta. It's hard for me to believe that one year ago I was back in Calcutta on the 35th anniversary filming Calcutta is My Mother. I've spent the past 2 years researching adoption, having heart to heart conversations with adoptees, and writing down every thought and feeling of … Continue reading 36 and 10 / What I’ve Learned About Adoption
Motherhood.
In May I will focus solely on the topic of motherhood in a series titled, Motherhood in May. The anticipation of my first Mother's Day without my mom, has my emotions in a hurricane-esque fury. I find myself anticipating the weight of her absence caving in on me on a day in which I have more reasons than … Continue reading Motherhood.
For My Mom / For Her / For Us All
I had no plans to post today because, well, consistency in blog posting isn't exactly my thing, but I had an urge to jot some things down. After lunch today, I scrolled through my Instagram feed and read some news I'd been dreading; event planner extraordinaire, creative force, loving momma, and stranger to me, Tori … Continue reading For My Mom / For Her / For Us All
Grief and Motherhood
My husband captured this quiet, precious moment between Rubina and I the other night as she and I talked about my mom. I'm extremely grateful to have this photo; I hope to never forget the way she looked at me, the tugging feeling as she wound my hair around her small fingers, and the sound of her voice as … Continue reading Grief and Motherhood
Peace and Pain
If I were to tell the truth, it might be sadder than you imagined. If I were to be open, honest, and raw it might surprise you. If I revealed these past few months have been the most grievous of my life you might think I'm being dramatic. If I were to share how I feel (which … Continue reading Peace and Pain
Five Years Ago | My Miracle Momma & Long Term Suffering
Five years ago I woke up in the middle the night certain my mom had died. She'd had surgery a couple days prior and wasn't rebounding as quickly as they'd hoped; her Dr's made 3 critical errors during this minor, routine surgery. I was worried. It was 1am in Colorado and midnight in Oregon. I slept restlessly for … Continue reading Five Years Ago | My Miracle Momma & Long Term Suffering
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